On a continuous basis of self sabotage, John completely berates himself for his aloofness and his cowardice. This when he had been forced to go to this social event, a seemingly harmless gathering which he should have never agreed to attend. But boxed in he was, and had no other choice but to go.
Realizing that he needed to go alone, this caused a shiver of cold sweat to form, his hands became frozen stiff. Great, he would be completely overcome by fright, which just compounded his uneasiness once showing …