Don’t tell me what to do, it’s my life, who do you think you are lecturing me on “I should do this” or “I shouldn’t be doing that.” This the precious yet ignorance of blind independence. Then one day, it hits you with a thud, you tell yourself it was fun while it lasted, but it’s time to grow up.
You’ve hurt the feelings of people because you can, you’ve lost friends and the faith of others because of your selfish acts, and the chaotic behaviour to fight for greedy me time.
You begin to realize the “currency” you built up, is beginning to run dangerously low. The turning point in your life is approaching, when no one will bail you out again.
After years of this behaviour bordering on madness, on so-called discovering yourself, escaping responsibility by the skin of your teeth, it’s the universe telling you your life has to change.
What the universe is asking, begging, demanding is you to alter your haphazard ways. The world you once called your ally is beginning to crumble around you.
You begin to realize you need to get it together, this time for good, before it’s too late. You begin to see the red flags, telling you to get your sh*t together and start living your life as an adult.
You Lose Touch With Those Close To You
All those you once called close friends, and certain family members are suddenly becoming distant.
If you need a pick me up from your latest downward spiral, that Rolodex of friends you once called for support is becoming shorter, you’re now a stranger to them.
You’ve managed to push those you once cared about away. Most of them just threw in the towel and moved out of your life, because they couldn’t stand watching you self-destruct after countless support.
They’ve turned their back because of your selfish ways, as you ignored the hardships of those you once loved.
As a result, they’ve now become a distant figment of your imagination, which is beginning to concern you.
This includes the guilt which eats you every time you ignore another email, another phone call, another missed “wishing you” a happy birthday, because you were too busy doing your own thing.
These are the people who supported you in the past and cared about you, but you carelessly severed the ties, cutting off all communication bonds.
When The Scales Begin Tipping Towards Angst
You begin to feel despair and emptiness creeping in rather than your usual carefree ways, perhaps another sign you’re heading towards rock bottom.
You begin to lose that vigour, that willingness to create your own happiness, what you once relied on, this to fill the empty void you’ve often felt when alone.
What you once enjoyed was being happy, so why is this mistress of misery suddenly crawling into your life.
You know something is amiss, and something needs to be done since you feel your battery of life starting to drain.
There’s no longer the happiness that once waited to greet you at the bottom of the beer glass, and no one is showing up once you throw own pity party.
You Begin To Lose Yourself
You made a pledge to live your life complete, day to day, yet you still have no idea who you are, or how you’ve arrived at where you’re currently at.
You’re physically there, but emotionally and mentally you remain vacant to the void of the unknown.
If someone ever takes the time to point that out to you, you’re insulted. It feels brutal, but you should be grateful someone cares enough to tell you the truth, yet you feel attacked, violated.
You’re ignorant to the damage you’re doing to yourself, to others, yet you choose to run with blinders on, and continue to pretend you’re someone else, someone special.
You disconnect yourself from your body, lose your identity, until you wake up and eventually realize, “Hey, I only have one life, one chance, one body, and I’m driving myself into the ground.”
You are the most important person you know in your life, and it becomes critical to be in touch with your personal identity.
It doesn’t matter nor should you care what the other billions of people out there think of you. What matters most is how you see yourself.
You Begin To Run Out Of Excuses
You suddenly realize your “excuse” meter is running low, so you decide to file for mental bankruptcy. You’re running out of “It’s not my fault” “Mind your own business” “I’ll do what I want.”
You realize this might be the final sign, you’re ready to wave the white flag of self destruction, to instead begin living a healthy life of sustained happiness.
It’s not easy admitting you have a problem, that the time has arrived to ask yourself where your head’s at, and why you continue to say yes to your self defeating behaviour.
There’s no shame in asking for help, or actually taking the advice you’ve been given. But it’s time to swallow your pride, to give in, to surrender, turn in your ego.
It’s guaranteed once you do so, you’ll pull yourself out from that black hole which appears to be swallowing you in.
What’s apparent once these same messages begin reoccurring in your life, they should be seen as turning points, begging you to change your ways, the universe is offering you forgiveness.
It becomes vital you listen, and then take action, and do whatever it takes to escape and reinvent your life, before it’s too late and you’re at the footsteps of your demise.